| long time no write |
[Jul. 20th, 2004|12:58 am] |
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| | Guns N Roses- Don't Cry | ] |
ok. i know i haven't written in this thing in a long time but there is something on my mind that i just have to let get out. of course since i'm writing this it is of course a whining i need advice entry but i don't care. tonight got me thinking of things. i went to go see I, Robot but for some reason went into the wrong theatre and walked into white chicks. i was the only one there so i should of notice that but i didn't. i didn't realize it until the movie started and by then it was too late. also i couldn't leave because for some odd reason these two girls decided to ditch their other two friends and sit next to me. of course as a nice guy i had to stay. the whole time sitting next to them i really was thinking about my situation rather than these two girls which just decided to sit next to me.
I started to think about all the girls that i'm might have something for. one girl i went out with but that was so many years ago. she is very attrative but she got some issues with her boyfriend or ex she says but shes not too sure what is going on. i don't know if i'm throwing out the signals or even if shes throwing them out at all but it just seems like something is happening. i don't know maybe it's just me making things up. then there is this other girl which i had a thing for for awhile. she's smart and kind but the only thing is that we are both shy. i think i'm even more shy than her because i already know she is shy.(if that makes any sense please explain to me) and me i'm really a touchy guy who likes to try to be romantic but afraid she might feel uncomfortable with me holding on to her tight.
I don't know what to do. feelings suck when they are contradicting every other time.
O well.
Evil Leprechaun |
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| yeah |
[Mar. 16th, 2004|08:57 pm] |
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| |  ecstatic | ] |
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| | Malice Mizer - Gardenia | ] |
ok lets see. its spring break and all i'm doing is working this whole week. but for some reason its a good week already. for one me and my friend adam and his friend matt are playing a season of madden and it looks like i could be a contender for a super bowl ring. so thats been a fun time. but also i went out with his sister who i've had a thing for the past, i don't know, year or so. we went to see the lord of the rings (making it a full 24 hours of watching that movie for the both of us.) it is such a great movie. after watching it we stood there for about half an hour and just talked. it was weird. i felt like i could act like i think and she would still just look at me with a smile. it was really fun. i asked her to do something with me on friday since thats the only day i'm not schelduled to work. so i've got to find something to do on that night. hopefully it will be as good as the last one. i'm really looking forward to this too.
alright thats it!
Evil Leprechaun |
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| ugh!! |
[Mar. 12th, 2004|11:48 pm] |
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| | The Story of the Year - Until the Day I Die | ] |
okay lets recap a week the history. i had a huge party things got out of hand but i can still sit at home and laugh at all the people that made it misserable at the time. at the same time i also sit back and look at the good moments (the few of them) and smile about them. i don't want to say what happened because if people here stuff let them think. the imagination is endless until you stop using it. ok..... pretty much i briused my knuckle by punching a slide. sat outside and smoked three cigarrettes even though i do not smoke. i needed lots of relieving. while out there i was sitting on the ground looking at the stars and seeing it was a full moon and thinking about alot of stuff. glad i did because i'm glad of what i told to a specific person. she knows that i liked her for awhile but i'm glad i told her alot of stuff. i wish i could talk to her more or get to know her even more. even though she is a very shy person i want to go places with her and spend some time with her. ugh. ok i'm done babiling(?). even when she left, i knew she had to leave but i wanted her to stay. but just a little hug and a kiss on the cheek made that night well worth all the trouble.
well thats that night. now people are saying they are trying to avoid the theatre because of what happened to them. whatever thats your descision. now i'm on spring break and i have A LOT of beverages left over. its just so great. i'm not going to drink it all myself. i don't want to die just yet. but if anyone has a little gathering... tell me so i can come prepared.
o yeah... What does it mean when a you recieve a hug and a kiss on the cheek from some one that doesn't like to be touched?
alright that it!
Evil Leprechaun |
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[Mar. 6th, 2004|11:38 am] |
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| |  drunk | ] |
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| | Hoobastank - Out of Control | ] |
ok if i put anything on tonight and some one sees it and becomes offended or anything... i'm sorry because i'll problably be drunk so i don't know what may come out. i ussually write when i'm drunk so what ever i do don't mind it please. TONIGHT'S GOING TO BE GREAT!!!
o yeah.... i'll tell you my whole week tommorrow because its not over yet.
Alright thats it!
Evil Leprechaun |
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| unexpected party |
[Mar. 2nd, 2004|01:36 am] |
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| | drunk | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Filter - Hey Man Nice Shot | ] |
ok lets see what happened tonight. i had no plans at all to do anything but michelle texted me and asked me if she wanted to hang out tonight. so i say sure and it turns out she was getting some vodka from her brother. alright so i though it would be michelle billy ashley kim dana and me but dana couldn't come because she had school tommorrow. alright we started to drink then michelle got a little crazy and started to speak louder and dance. then i get a call from jacqui and i invite her and matt over as well. then jeff was online so i matt asked me if he should invite him too and i said sure. so really it turned out to be an unexpected tiny party before the bigger party on sat. so thats cool. another thing that happened tonight was that i'm now going to go to eastern's prom with michelle's friend ashley. it should be cool because she's cute and really nice plus billy is going to be there so i have another guy to talk to. alright well i've got to go clean some more for this up coming huge party. PLEASE NO COPS!!
Alright thats it!
Evil Leprechaun |
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| To the beach |
[Feb. 29th, 2004|02:38 am] |
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| | peaceful | ] |
| [ | music |
| | The Verve - Bittersweet Symphony | ] |
alright lets see what my night was. working at the movie theatre where every one wanted to see Passions of Christ but no one would think that it would sell out no. so what do they do complain. ok you can go in a try to find a seat while the movie is actually playing. go right ahead. don't care about the other people that are already in there seat because they knew what they were seeing and when to come see it. then gabbie was feeling tired so gabbie jenni and me all parted in the parking lot. and it turns out i can't go with them to shampoo tommorrow because i have work. damnit. i actually wanted to go too. then of course i decided to go to the beach and look at the stars. WOW was that incredible. for about a good five minutes or so i just stood there with my eyes closed listening to the waves crash. it made me feel extremely better after that moment. when i was walking to my car i realized i had tears in my eyes. why was i tearing? could it have been the cold or what i was thinking about? i don't know but i never even noticed it. so in the begining the night sucked but overall it wasn't that terrible of a night.
O yeah... sorry lauren for not bringing you.
Alright thats it!
Evil Leprechaun |
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| just thinking right now |
[Feb. 28th, 2004|12:55 pm] |
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| | Beck - Loser | ] |
after last night i started to think about some things and it got me back to about two weeks ago or so. i wrote this poem after one night and just felt like posting it for once so here it is:
Take another drink
you'll never be able to have her
take another shot
you blew it even though you never had a chance
the liquor, right next to you
how do you know you have feelings for her?
jack will make everthing better
so what if she makes you truly smile?
the liquid will make everything go away
you don't even talk to her
chase a shot with another shot
over a year and your still at only hey
drink until you have no memorys
isn't she totally different from you?
no more feelings after a couple of drinks
what ever you do, nothing will come of it
the total truth comes out after you lost sense
she's dark abd you hide behind a smile
it's ok if you can't walk in a straight line
she won't even let you hold her hand
close your eyes and you will never remeber
go tell her the obvious that you admire her
bottoms up!
o yeah... if it wasn't for ray i would have never started to write again.
alright thats it!
Evil Leprechaun |
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| RUN!!! |
[Feb. 28th, 2004|01:34 am] |
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| |  indescribable | ] |
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| | Metallica - Fuel | ] |
i just the most entertaining night in my life. and to be honest i thought it was going to be gayer than queer eye for the straight guy, but in acuality it was the exact opposite.
First, i didn't call jenni back until 6:50 or so when she told me she was leaving at 6:30 and that would have really sucked if she already left. we decided to meet at the theatre because she went to pick up her other friend matt. so i talked to mellissa a little before we left. so it was jenni, gabby, matt, lindsay and me stuffed in a little chevy malibu. we drove to overbrook to go see lindsay's brother wrestle in districts. as soon as we get there gabby, lindsay, and jenni all go to the other side of the gym to talk to lindsay's brother. while matt and me went to sit in the bleachers which turned out to be mostly people from lindenwold. so we sat there watching wrestling and matt drinking dr.pepper and this scotch which really reaked. with all the cops there i thought for sure he would get caught but he never did. while we watched these two 15 yr. olds walk up to me and one of the puts her arm around me. turns out this is one of the many little girls that think since im so nice to them at the movies that we have a friendship or something when really its my job.(I'm sorry I don't mean it.)
so now it turns out i have a 15 yr old stalker who says shes 18 trying to get me or something. hopefully im thinking wrong. after awhile they walk away and lindsay's brother starts to wrestle so me and matt go sit by them. turns out he comes back and pins the kid to win. finally we leave around 8 or so from overbrook.
Next, billy two ways jenni and he wants us to go play pool, but before that we head over to the deptford mall and decied to say hi to two of gabbie and jenni's friends. while walking through the mall we stop and go into victoria secret. when we went in there it was funny because all of us were completely and utterly seriously shopping. so we were all looking around and jenni holds up this yellow lingerie(or however you spell it) i thought that it would look awesome for her but it was like 38 dollars and i told her i would buy it for her. she then found another one that was in hot pink and i thought that she would look great in anything with a bright color. then gabbie says that matt thinks she would look good in purple and she would look good in any dark color but then lindsay said she only looked good in black and really she would. hey i would have bought any of thos girls any of type as long as i knew i thought it would look great on them. soon after leaving all victoria secret we all started to notice all the little prostitots in the mall and said that none of us tried to look really good just to go to the mall but hey whatever. we then met up with there friends and they said that as soon as they were done they would go to the pool hall. we then got back in jenni's malibu and after like 20 minutes of being lost we found the place which was right across from the deptford mall. so we sat there playing pool for maybe an hour or so until jenni's friends arrived. thier names were bird and roach. we then decided to go to Pat's for cheese steaks in philly. while driving there bird and roach started to mess with jenni(and jenni's not that great of a driver in the first place) so jenni just decides to make a right into a street and gets us lost for awhile until we found the place. soon after we couldn't find a place to park so while matt was yelling different directions to go jenni was just trying to avoid hitting any cars that didn't like the sign that said STOP. of course she also waved one guy on and still almost went and hit him. i have to give a two thumbs up to that strecth limo driver which parrel parked and we all thought he was too big but fit it perfectly. we then found a parking spot and we finally ate the cheese steak. IT WAS ALL WORTH IT! it was so so so delicious. finally we met up with the other guys and they turned out to go to geno's instead but what ever people like different things or else we wouldn't have all these wars and debates. after eating we decide to go see the street races which honestly i have never done. matt then decided to take a leak next to the car, so jenni decided to pretend to leave him and a taxi came up from behind him. we couldn't understand what the guy was saying and jenni locked the windows to play around earlier so i yell to matt to take his hand off the window so i could open the door. turns out that jenni ran over matts foot and stopped on his foot. we laughed for the rest of the night about that moment. come on! sure people's feet get run over but who gets there foot run over and the car stops on your foot. also matt was too drunk to yell out that his foot was stuck he just sort of moved trying to pull it out saying in normal tone that his foot is stuck.
any way we decided to go to the races and jenni was getting low on gas so we stop at one gas station and they are closed. so then we drive another 10 minutes and find a gas station and all these hooked up cars were there. so it turns out that, that gas station is where the races were at. go figure. damn that was nice. cars spinning there wheels. some cars raced each other 3 or 4 times. but there was this one mustang that was really nice and did a nice 360 burn out right in a 4 lane street but was the size of a 2 lane street with a full comfortably fit passengers in it. but that stang couldn't be beat until this one car which only looked like it had nice rims blew away the mustang. yet soon after a group of people jetted and turns out cops came!! DAMNIT!!! we just ran as fast as we could to get away and get back into jenni's car. for a moment there i thought we lost matt because he was right behind me but really he over shot the car and ran past it. we did manage to get away from the cops but it was a true adrenaline rush. after we were back on the road and all these cars were turning and turns out that they were racing somewhere else. we actually got a great parking spot right where the races would have started but then yet again we had to run like hell to get away from the cops. After the second time we just decided lets not chance it a third time and went home. when we got back to my car we said our goodbyes and then of course after seeing all that speed and burn outs i had to do a burn out for myself in acto parking lot. i got bored going home so on one stretch of 73 i just opened up and hit around 100 mph. so that was my night and the day started out bad but really turned into a f-ing great night!!!!!
O yeah.. i just found out that my party is going to be pretty big. just hope theres no cops invovled. thats my only thought
alright thats it!
Evil Leprechaun |
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| Messed up |
[Feb. 27th, 2004|06:20 pm] |
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| | Smile Empty Soul - Bottom of the Bottle | ] |
i think i'm going to write a book about a messed up persons life. its just funny to think up a messed up life and write about it but i don't know what ever. i need something to do. i know one day i'll end up like my family all messed up so why not just tell the future of my life to every one in the world.
ok i refuse to work in the stand any more because it makes me get in a bad mood and i just want to get away and do something else. but it also gets me into a complete cleaning frenzy. damn conscession stand. NO MORE!
the human race is messed up. its all about games. to hell with games just tell people if you only want to be friends or you want to be more than just friends. too much flirting games in the world.
ok let me flirt with them just in case my flirting doesn't work with them. screw it. people think they are in love when the only thing that happens is that they are being treated like shit. ofcourse the nice guy is not qualified for the games so they are left alone or they end up in a realationship that is destoying his ways. nice guys fininsh last until they realize they are not nice guys anymore but in fact what they never wanted to be. either the lonliest person they know or worse..... an asshole. i'd rather be lonely in my life rather then ever become an asshole.
alright got to stop complaining.
alright thats it!
Evil Leprechaun |
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| Can't wait |
[Feb. 25th, 2004|11:32 pm] |
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| |  anxious | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Lustra - Scotty Doesn't Know (Eurotrip) | ] |
i can't wait until the party on march 6th. hopefully it will be great but o well. tonight i all i did was go to the movies and talk to gabbie, jacqui, billy, and all the othere people that were there. i'm there too damn much. i stole the eurotrip sign from there . its going to look good on my wall in my room. just thinking of it i need to get some alcohol for this party. i've got money but i've not sure who to ask to get it for me but it will be good, i have a week to get it any way. well class tommorow hopefully i'll go to palace with everyone tommorrow night. its pretty bad when you can't wait to just go to a diner and sit there for 2 or 3 hours just talking and fooling around with people.
alright thats it!
Grady~Evil Leprechaun |
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